Wow, it’s been a few days since I’ve been here. The holidays have been full of busyness and travel, and I’ve hardly had time to catch my breath much less write a blog post.
I have a feeling 2009 is going to be a year of change for me. There are some changes that I know are coming, and given all the uncertainty out there right now who knows what may happen?
I, like many of you, are dealing with a good deal of fear. I like things to roll along smoothly. Who doesn’t? But as I look back over just the last 10-15 years of my life I can see where God has been faithful in every circumstance in which I found myself…even the bad circumstances I put myself in by making bad decisions.
I think of things in logical/concrete ways…think of Mr. Spock on Star Trek only with female-hormone-powered emotions and non-pointy ears. I have a hard time dealing with situations or ideas that aren’t black and white. If there isn’t an obvious answer, or if the outcome isn’t easily foreseeable, I spin into anxiety. In these cases I also tend to be pessimist and always think of the worst case scenario. I think God gave me my optimist husband to balance me out and to keep me from being admitted to the loony bin. Seriously, if you are a concrete thinker and a pessimist and you don’t have an optimist friend and/or spouse the likelihood that you’ll seek professional mental health help during your lifetime is high.
The main thing that keeps me functionally calm and centered is my loving Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Sometimes I deeply question why he made me the way I am, but I know he’s using even a broken person like me to advance his Kingdom in some small way. That motivates me to get out of bed on mornings when things aren’t looking so rosy. He gives me a deep-seated peace when my mind wants to scream, “The sky is falling!”
So, if you are going into this uncertain New Year and you don’t know the peace that comes from a personal relationship with Jesus Christ please contact me and/or visit this website, because my wish for you in the New Year is to have the peace you so richly desire.
